So, I'm playing out finally, after months of writing new songs. I was found by this coffee shop, that's right, they found me. That makes me so stoked because I was found and asked to share my passion with the public. I cannot wait. Ya'll should come check it out if you can, it's Friday, August 17th, from 7-9pm at Signatures Gourmet Coffee Shop on 313 W. Main Street in Fairborn, OH. I cannot wait guys, this is what I live for. Take care ya'll...
Okay, so you guys first off really need to watch this video of John Mayer live playing "Slow Dancing In A Burning Room" because it's so powerful. He's the greatest songwriter of my generation, that is, of modern music now. Trust me on that folks.
Enough of that, So, I've been writing songs now like crazy, I'm getting probably two CDs done. My almost ready to come out CD "Never New" has about a few more songs that I need to record, other than that, I'm ready to record for my other new CD. Life seems great right now. I don't know why, but it does. Where things go when you trust the universe is usually up...
So What's with finding WHO I might be?
What I can't ever understand is how we can abandon who we are, in order to in fact find, who we are. Experiences through life teach us a lot, obviously...but I don't get the people who don't know how to settle down a bit and realize that life isn't some blurr that needs to be accomplished through materialistic items and substances. How can one enjoy losing all judgement? That's just wicked. It's far out to know that you can have people to depend on, that's one thing, you know, people to fall back on when life throws that damn curve ball and ends up hitting you at the plate, and you have to gimp your way to first base. Substances, they get you nowhere but on a couch not totally coherent to what is happening. I'm just so befuddled to this whole idea that some people rely on something that doesn't breathe, talk, or listen when you need them. Something that creates unnecessary situations. I don't know, I guess I'm just crazy, aren't I? But if substances define who you are, then that's just one fucked up thing. Things are getting heavy right now, but I've got music to pull me through...
So, I was in a relationship with a girl for 7 months, and about 3 1/2 months ago, we broke up. This was no ordinary relationship though. I mean, in the sense that yeah, it was only 7 months....but, it was the quickest, most passionate and intense relationship I've ever been in. She was one of a kind. But that works in both ways, it's a double meaning. Yea, she's unique, and rather attractive, and was the cutest thing ever...but life threw a curve ball at me-just as the blog about life in general states. Lying and betraying my trust are the two upmost things I don't stand for...so I walked away. Let me tell you all-THIS IS THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER HAD TO DO!!! It's so so hard. Sometimes I feel the urge to call this girl, on nights when I'm alone, but I won't let myself, even to the point of holding the phone in my hand with all but one digit to go on dialing her number. My Lord, I never knew it would be this way. I mean, seriously. I had to separate my feelings from necessities, and what I wanted, from what I needed.
Now, I'm just starting, I mean, at this moment, I'm JUST STARTING to repair and restore myself back to who I am, or some state similar to normalcy. I mean, I'm now still finding out who I am as a person...as I will be doing for the rest of my life. This though, I'd say this is the point in which I pick myself up, piece by piece, and thoroughly consider where I am, and I'm telling myself "This is where I need to be, alone, and figuring what's best, Heart-it's okay to hurt, but don't let it get the best of you, and Mind-ease up, but help keep me steady." Wow, I just sometimes wish I could close my eyes, and wake up, and she'd be there, and actually be good for me...but I won't, and she's not. I guess this helps me in my ongoing journey toward the definition of: Who I am...
Life is crazy. I never understand it. It keeps me on my toes. I just hope that it takes me where I want, wait, no, heck with that, I'll get where I want, but the thing is, it totally throws curve balls at you when you least expect it. I don't know, I just sometimes sit and wonder where I'll be in ten years. Hell, where will I be?
So I got a new CD coming out July 29th. It's titled "Never New," I think you'll all like it. I'm hoping. These songs on the album really hit home. I feel like it's pretty much my heart on a compact disc. There'll be around 13 songs on it. If you're interested in buying it, of course it'll be on my website, www.ericulliman.com
