Gotta Love Honesty

So, I'm here, at home, it's only 11 o'clock at night, and I'm beginning to get tired. But, as I dwindle down and calm down, I can't help but wonder why human being can be so brutal sometimes. I'm sick of games, and I'm sick of the emotional roller-coasters people love to put you on, I mean, what did I ever do to deserve such a thing?

What seems to be a common theme in human behavior is emotion, I mean, shit, we are all beings of emotion. What I don't like about emotion is that it can cause pain. Although pain can be a good thing, in a non-hedonistic manner, (reminding us of being human, teaching us life-lessons, etc...), it sucks terribly. I'm tired of pain, I'm tired of enduring shit for someone who can't have the decency to not cause the pain. It's just so unnecessary sometimes, and quite frankly, I don't want to have anything to do with it. Humans are so complex...PEOPLE are so complex. What the hell is it to one person as to why I feel a certain way sometimes. Why can't people just accept each other for who they are??? It doesn't make sense to me. Constantly I'm having to pretend like I'm not affected by so many things that really do affect me, just so another person isn't offended, or turn around and get mad at me. There's so much to not understand, and not enough time to really get it all down.

Time won't slow down, it never will, and it is constantly testing me and pushing me to the limits. It's that damn constant race...